Can't Remember the Last Time that I...

Actually stayed home from work because I was ill!!  The weather change seemed to do a flip on my immune system.  I went to bed last night with a cough and today it's been pretty much the same.  Must think liquids-water and broth and tea.

It's always when I'm down for the count that reality seems to try and hit me from all sides.  The boyfriend's dad is not doing better, despite treatment and being in the hospital.  I'm not sure what to do.  I hate praying and the only response I feel I get out of that is either silence or the opposite of good news.  I don't want to give up hope because I have a bad vibe off something.

Not to mention school is getting so hard to fit into my schedule.  Or just real life.  I'm constantly trying to get things accomplished for me, but the only thing getting accomplished is me being late for everything.  I just get so tired, so bogged down by having a dirty house, unfinished tasks for school and work, that I am completely overwhelmed.  I can't depend on others to get things done, but I'm left with only the choice of leaving the responsibility to someone else.  And it doesn't get completed, it doesn't get accomplished or it's not successful.  I feel as though what everyone wants for me doesn't work for me most days.

And the sad thing is the root of all this is money.  I'm spending money to make money.  I'm spending money to make money.  I'm spending crap loads of money that's not even mine, to make money.

I need a hero.