Mental Health

After having probably one of the worst weekends yet, I now have 2 doctor's appointments to find out what is going on with my body and state of mind.  Not that I need therapy, but just to make sure my biological makeup as of current is healthy, and to see if I'll actually be put on some normal type of birth control.  Who knows?  I could see this just being a continuation of messed up hormones, or maybe a holy grail of internal mental peace.  We'll see.

I have started to realize that my attitude and outlook on relationships now stems a lot from within myself.  And I realize that I need to be more open to making friends and keeping a tight lid on talking about relationship problems with people.  I've run in with someone who thinks they know what I need, when they barely know me.  And although that's nice they feel compelled to give me advice, it's inappropriate.  If anything I now know that the way I've been dealing with things in my life is unhealthy, and I have to figure out a healthy and different way of going about it.  Instead of just drifting through day after day and never knowing when I'm going to see or talk to anyone ever again and leaving it up to everyone else, I need to be proactive.