Getting to the core of the problem

Can we just establish that I hate needles and refuse to give blood because of the horrible anxiety I get from placing my arm in front of me waiting to get stabbed?  Good.  I had blood tests run yesterday for my physical, and I absolutely despise that entire procedure.  What's worse is that they have all these xeroxed pictures of cute puppies and kittens and bunnies sleeping or looking adorable to try and calm your nerves so that when they do stick you and draw copious amounts of blood from you, you're somehow distracted like a kid with ADD.  Well, I don't have ADD, and my instincts are so strong that even if I'm thinking "omg that bunny is effing CUTE", I still am fully aware that "OW, that really hurt and you're making it worse by moving that thing you've put in my vein, you sick freak!"  So instead of being happily distracted, looking at cute pictures has a bittersweet effect on me now.  That might be cute, but I'm fully prepared to be ambushed by someone if I see cute pictures everywhere.

And nothing is worse than seeing 6 little vials of your blood next to you on a tray.  The movies never get the true color of blood right.  Depending on the volume and amount, it could be bright red or almost purple.  Regardless, that mess was dark and scary looking.

Anyway, aside from that traumatic excursion, school and the weather are doing a wonderful job of distracting me from the not so nice parts of my life.  Spring WILL be here early, and if not, I'm going to live like it is because it just means I'm one step closer to summer.  Summer signifies that I have completed all my pre-requisites for both my major and minor, as well as a whole giant new step in my relationship.  I'm closer to graduation, the real world, and a happy (significantly less) stress-free relationship.

I like to think that I'm taking care of things, but I'm not *quite* there yet.  Lots more doctor's stuff has to be appointed (nothing scary or serious, just time for routine check-ups/procedures I've been neglecting mostly since I've had my braces removed/moving up north), much organization/budgeting to be completed, as well as getting all my ducks in a row before I can enjoy play time.  So, onto a boring life (still), and hopes for a much more exciting one later.