That being said, everyone has flaws. Whether it's anger, emotions, addiction, self image, self confidence, physical, etc. we are all flawed in some way. It's all a part of who we are, because people aren't perfect, and if they were, love wouldn't exist. But some things need to be worked out because they may kill us, or prevent us from reaching what we truly desire. I'll be the first to admit it's tough as shit to work out problems. It becomes a lifestyle of reminding yourself that "No, I don't need a cupcake with every meal" "No, I don't need a drink" "No, getting high isn't going to make this all better" "Yes, I can do this" "I am beautiful/capable/better than that" and so on. Having to consciously remind ourselves of who we are is important, because forgetting who you are and where you come from is like humanity's Achilles Heal.
I like when they say time heals everything, because healing takes time. It is a process, so the things you do during the time is actually what heals you, not waiting for a magical timer to go off saying "You're cured!". Actually I think growing up is what helps us get over the fact that someone broke our heart, hurt us, mistakes we made, things we don't like about ourselves, and how to be the best version of our flawed selves. But no one likes hearing "Grow up!", instead a kind phrase like "time heals everything" makes it sound like we aren't the ones who fucked up, we are just a part of a greater whole, and so we feel safe and secure in our decisions.
My biggest issue at my age is the fact that people are done growing up, now my peers and I are all growing older. People are starting families, getting married, becoming homeowners, having real jobs, or just being victims of this crap economy and working minimum wage. This means no more excuses for excessive laziness, lack of responsibility, accountability, etc. Time to man up and start taking care of yourself like your mom used to. I am not one to have a routine down for my mornings and evenings, but nothing has been telling me I should start like aging. I don't mean getting old, because I still think I'm a ways off from that reality, but aging as in like, going a day without washing your face makes your skin dry and icky, or not showering takes a toll on your hair and it doesn't shine like it wants to. I'm trying to figure out how to get the self discipline to actually take good care of myself daily. Thinking about the ways has made me come to the conclusion that in order to really even give that much a shit about myself means I must be obsessed with looking good constantly, or that I have to develop some kind of insecurity with not being totally cared for. Like I should be high maintenance about my health. But that's so exhausting that I'd rather just skip. So now I'm trying to figure out a way to prioritize that into my life, along with everything else. I'm realizing more and more the things we value define who we are as a person. Things we value now, or decisions we make now, have major effects on our lives in the future. It's just insane to think of what kind of old(er) person I'm going to be.
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