Having 95% of all my gifts for people has really let me deal with a lot less stress in my daily life. I'm actually kind of amazed at how fast I got all my gifts figured out. And it didn't break my bank either :)
But Christmas signifies a coming to a close on the year, and the new year reminds me that there is time for a renewal. I feel as though the changes I've noted in my own life will be put into full use come the new year, and so far it seems to bring me nothing but good things. It's actually kind of cool. I don't feel as much stress or anger with problems, mostly because I just throw them all away. I don't feel the need to get up in someone's face with something so trivial. Ok, so the bank doesn't know how to do it's job. From now on I make sure what I need to do is prompt (even early) and void of potential errors.
I've always learned the hard way that you cannot blame others for things being late or wrong when you are a part of the problem. I do literally whatever it takes to make sure that no one can find blame in me for the things I do. Granted, this is a lot of pressure, but I don't look at it that way. I'm just living my life and doing my thing. I don't put that pressure on others because they are not me. Ultimately if it doesn't work out for them, I'm not to blame. I hold myself up to high standards and I can't do that to those around me. It's unfair and it only leads to disappointment.
Ironically that kind of epiphany has made me content with my state and with my relationships, even if bridges have been burned. I don't get upset about who doesn't talk to me anymore, who's written me off, or anything like that. And it's mostly because I'm happy doing my thing. If they aren't a part of it, then oh well, but I'm happy and that's what matters.
It's amazing what things you can enjoy in life. I had more fun last night just trying dried fruits and nuts at the grocery store with the boyfriend than I would have had I gone out to the bars instead. I have no idea why, but sometimes goofing off with people you love is just enjoyable. Also when I got home I got to play with the puppy in the snow and now I wish I could do that every day.
I think some time this week I'm going to drive around and look at the Christmas lights like when I was a kid. Nothing wrong with free entertainment. And speaking of entertainment, here's a little diddy I made for everyone:
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