It's so HOTTTTT!!!!

I woke up this morning and instead of it being kind of chilly and rainy or sunny and breezy...it was humid as a motherf*****.  I have all this ambition to go out, get a job, work on making my apartment fresh and pretty-but if this weather doesn't become nice and spring-like, I'm just gonna have to find some other way of coping with life. I'm glad that I got a little glimpse of summer, but not having air conditioning in my house is bounds for not okay-ness with me.  Seriously.

But I'm excited to clean out my crap and organize my shit this summer.  Having a new laptop (yay!!!) to do all my work and stuff on is soooo much nicer and more enjoyable too!  I have all these things I want to change about my home now that I have time to think and organize and do things that don't require myself outside of the home.  That's like the one plus side to being unemployed.  Everything else sucks.  Like having no money.  That problem encompasses all my other little problems I've got going on.  I'm seriously considering getting a night/weekend job if I can't land something decent during the day.

But back to this whole goal of getting back to myself and the basics...I am definitely the type of person whose environment totally effects everything.  If it's gross outside and rainy, I don't get up in the morning.  I also tend to be crabbier than usual or more on edge.  If it's nice, my ass is up at like 7:30 bright eyed and bushy tailed, ready to go.  Even if it's a Saturday!  But aside from that, I'm really sick of feeling lazy and unmotivated, which is how I've been feeling all school year.  I'm not really sure why, but that needs to change, IMMEDIATELY.  Well, not really, but soon enough.  I'm just sick of eating fast food, processed food, going out to eat, not exercising (I miss living in Uptown for this reason alone.  I have no lakes to walk around!), having only black and gray clothing (what happened?  Like, for real?), hardly ever getting done up, not reading (my reading list is almost to 100, why has this not been completed yet?!)-just having a real lack of living and enjoyment going on.  I feel so bored and tired of my life right now.  I feel like it would all be so much better if I had a job, but then having a job means I wouldn't have any time to really change the things I'd really appreciate (like redecorating!).

But I'm hoping that I can get all that done this summer.  I'm not boggled down by obligations I had last summer, as well as no summer school (that was quite possibly the worst idea EVER).  When I have nothing to do, I get bombarded with ambition and ideas and it all comes into my brain in like 2 days of doing nothing and feeling like I have nothing to do.  It's pretty cool.  But also not so great because I shouldn't ever be that bored.